Transition Phase - I

Well, its been a while since I wrote anything. Almost 2 years, to be precise. Its not that I didn't get time or I never tried. I did, many times. And I hated what I wrote. So I either ended up deleting the post or tearing up the page. I mean, it just wasn't me. I used to write earlier, and it was WAY different than what I'm writing now. And one fine day I gave up. Yes, I vowed never to write again, now that I've lost my flair.

So it went on for a while, people kept asking me to update, to write, to try. I did, and it just didn't work. I've tried and failed, again and yet again. so I thought its better to stop writing than lose whatever little confidence I've got in me. But one fine day I thought what the hell. Let me do this.

So I wrote. Just sat there, oblivious to everything except the keyboard and my thoughts. I finished on the write-up. Went to do something else, came back, and thought of giving it a proof-read. And guess what... I was appalled at the outcome. The whole thing just felt...wrong. I mean, it just wasn't me.

Atleast, it wasn't me 2 years back. I used to write a lot different. I was witty, sarcastic, even downright rude back then. And what I have in front of me now is a boring long seriously put article about some social issue about which many of us do not give a shit. I wondered, have I really changed so much in this period? Did I turn out to be nothing but a boring old hag?

So I stopped there. Didn't write anything after that for a week. But it got me thinking. What is it that changed between then and now, that changed my thought process SO much? And why was I not able to write anything all this while? Writer's block?


Author's Note:
I would like to say more about this, but then, scintillating, though my writing is, I cannot take the liberty of writing a novel-long post here. It'd be presumptive at the most, and boring at the least. So I'll continue further in the next one.